11 Video post!

Thought it would be easier if I made a video with a bunch of visuals and thought it would be faster than writing out my thoughts.... Sorry, I look SO crappy!

Some pictures though =]

NWC: The Race Show: http://nwclive.com/

We're the last ones to see the show with the original cast! Hopefully they'll continue the show or make it into a movie. It was a great show, about stereotypes and racism, debunking the myths about them. It's kind of hard to go into much detail. Through all the laughs, there was still a message that the only real race is the human race.

Amazon

I'm so excited for them! I really want to work for them. They have so many great opportunities that I could go with, if they decide to pick me, of course. I need to brush up on programming! Anyways, their software development internships are located at their Seattle headquarters. They pay for everything and room us all with each other! I think it'd be an awesome opportunity, to be able to live in Seattle and gain more experience bei

ng out on my own and working in the industry. I know, I feel like I'm going farther and farther away from home when I don't have to, but I need to learn. What's also great is that they have a subsidiary, CreateSpace.com, located in California. They have an office right here in San Luis Obispo, where a lot of Cal Poly students intern or work part time over school. I think that would be really awesome if it worked out that way.

These guys keep me at the top of my game. I hate them! Again, I look really bad haha, I was pretty sick that night... but I hope I still made a good impression. But they're the reason I went to the Career Fair and signed up for this dinner. I really wasn't looking for an internship for the summer. I was hoping to take a break and just stay for summer school. -_-

Culture Party:

Last night. It was really fun! But I'm glad I stayed home afterwards instead of going out. I really needed rest. My friend is so tall...

10 Mind poop

I have so much that I want to let out! It's not that I haven't been wanting to, but there just hasn't been any time or anyone to talk to really. Don't worry! It's not that I don't want to talk to you. I just haven't been able to. We're all busy, it's understandable. But be prepared for some mind poop, some time over the weekend. =) Sorry, it will probably be a long post.

9 Before I lose this feeling

Despite it having been quite a gloomy day today (weather-wise), I had a pretty bright day, so far. Things that made my day (I swear this list will be a short one):

• Went to Career Services today and got help on my resume. The lady that I met with was so nice! She helped me out a lot. She was so proud of me after looking at my resume! "I'm so proud of you right now! And I don't even know you!" haha. =) That made me feel better, after not knowing what to write down on my resume and being so unsure of myself and what I've done. Ah, that was just a great confidence boost.
• Met with my marketing group for PCN. It was a chill meeting, but I suppose it could've gone smoother... I didn't really have a set list of things to talk about, but we're doing something! I'm excited.
• Instead of working on homework and other things afterwards, I ended up tagging along with some friends in the hopes of being able to play around in the music room. People were practicing though so we couldn't. In the end, Ritchie and I just ended up playing around with the piano in one of the music rooms for half an hour. Time well spent! It was so fun. Both of us hadn't played in so long, so we were just playing random bits and making up songs or making up interpretive dances to Mozart's Sonata K. 545. hahaha ^^ I have a video, but I can't figure out how to get it onto my computer right now... =(

8 Physics and clutter

Ah, Thursday morning. Even though we have a short school week this week, I still have just as much, if not more, to think about. I'm going to stay up a little more to study for Physics, but for now, since I can't think straight, here's a list of random thoughts that have been going through my head these past couple of days.

• Wow, I have a lot to do.
• We have a black president! How crazy! It was really difficult to get a copy of the New York Times today, and I failed to do so.
• Job Fair is coming up soon. I need to work on my resume.
• I'm sitting with Amazon next week.
• I wish I understood physics better.
• I want to go shopping for a dress for Winter Formal. Am I even going? I don't know yet.
• I don't feel like I'm working on my school work as much as I'm supposed to.
• It's funny seeing other people stressed out. Everyone is starting to study for upcoming midterms and preparing for jobs and interviews. I used to be like that. I would always just stay home and study. I never went out to parties. Well, we'll see how my grades turn out this quarter.
• I think part of the reason why I'm not stressing out is because I don't really know what I want to do. I'm just going along for the ride.
• I'm now spending more time in the gym than at the library.
• My guy friends are starting to become really lame. They're never up for doing anything anymore. They're so anti. Anti girls, anti going out of their way to hang out with others. I associate it with laziness and being antisocial, but they like it. I'm kind of tired trying to change everyone's minds.
• I need to pay more attention to deadlines.
• I should apply for more scholarships.
• I don't think I can think about studying abroad right now. There's too much going on.
• I'm having a dilemma about being active in PCE and working on school. I know that I should really be more focused on school, and I hope that that still hasn't changed, but I just feel like it has. There's just so much to think about, but I really should prioritize and stop accepting more responsibility. If I continue to do so, I think I will eventually fall apart.
• I have a lot of goals this quarter. It's going alright so far. I'm managing my time, not too many nights spent staying up working yet. 
• Some relationships, I still feel are strained. But it's okay. For now. It's bad, I'm still angry sometimes, and I fuel it. But it's just thoughts. I'm more indifferent, or I say that I am.
• Looking at my calendar, I feel so accomplished, but I'm not really. I think it's just because I fill it up with stuff that I might need to know. 
• I want to watch Slumdog Millionaire, read and watch Coraline, and finish another book. It's kind of hard to get into a book right now, with so many other thoughts going through my mind.
• Valentine's day is coming up. Why am I even thinking of this when it's still three weeks away?
• I haven't reached my goals yet, and I know that I still have a long way to go. But I'm more hopeful now. I can see myself reaching it.
• I miss home, but I'll be back to visit soon enough! =)

7 Weekend in Pictures

Sorry, I haven't had time to blog. I sure have been thinking about it though. Just never had the time to write anything down. Here was my crazy weekend before I locked myself up in my room to do homework.

UTS & Jones @ Cayucos + playing with swings at the beach

View from not even halfway up Bishop's Peak, night hiking x_x

My favorite grade vortexes, oh jeez...

Hopefully more to come later! I know I always say this, but it's true...

6 Gentlemen

Quick update at 4:30 in the morning...

I'm currently in better spirits compared to my previous post. Thanks for checking up on me. =]

I recently caught up with my good friend Tam. I met him last year at the dorms and he still only lives down the hall from me. Even though we're even closer now, we see each other less. So this is the first time since I've talked to him in a while. It was nice to catch up with him. I missed those times when we would just hang out at each other's rooms and talk. I had forgotten how randoms our conversations are, but they would always flow. Not a lot of time wasted in silence. The topics would also vary from serious to light-hearted ones. It's different with him and I've missed that. 

Before we ended our talk (I was cleaning up and doing laundry), he went downstairs to the laundry room with me and came back up to drop me off at my room. I just thought that that was very courteous of him. From there, I continued to think about how some of my guy friends last year used to drop me off at my dorm hall's door when we said good-bye. Haha, it's so different now. Perhaps it's because we now live closer and it's inconvenient for them to come up simply to drop us off at our rooms. Oh well.  I wonder if it would ever be like that again.

Hopefully another update later with pictures! =]

5 Optimism

Back to school. Schedule is pretty tough, but the week is not over yet. Basically, I have three long days in a row but followed by two chill days. Oof. Well, workload is not quite certain yet. It's only the first week. We will see how this plays out...

Coming back to Cal Poly over this past weekend, I was filled with optimism and enthusiasm. I was so excited and kept thinking how this quarter will be so great. New classes, new teachers, new people to meet, a continuation of getting to know those I met last quarter... After two days of classes, I'm still excited but admittedly not as much as I used to be. It's weird how quickly emotions could change. But that's a different topic.

I want to accomplish so many things this quarter. I know that I'm being ambitious in all the activities that I want to participate in and all the work and effort that I want to put into my classes. I'm confident that I can handle it all and I'm being careful about choosing which projects I want to continue with or not. This quarter is already proving to be much different. I've been spending more time by myself. I told myself that that's what I wanted last quarter. It's a good thing. I want to be more independent and it's easier to get things done since I don't have to rely on others. But now, I'm spending a lot more time with my thoughts, which I've already decided is a bad thing. My thoughts so easily make their way to more serious matters or self-doubt and self-hate and I just end up sulking.

My question to you is how do you keep yourself in good spirits and optimistic?

4 SLOBound

Ahh! I will be heading back to San Luis Obispo sometime today. I don't think I'll have the time to write a real entry today, though I know that I will probably lie awake in my bed tonight, anxious for the next day's schedule. Ah, back to the busy life...

Well, I meant to put up a YouTube video on here, but embedding is disabled. So here's a link to a song that I think is cute. The video is cute too. =) Enjoy The Show!

3 End of break

Last night, a few of us went over to Teresa's house, and to our surprise, she laid out a fancy dinner for us!

She even wrote our full names on our cups! Thanks for a lovely dinner! Here's our chef in action along with a couple of pictures from our evening:

haha, Christine... <3

Teresa and I watched The Fountain yesterday. What a weird movie! There were some interesting concepts throughout, but we were both glad to have watched it in the comfort of our own homes where we could say things aloud. It was fun watching it with each other too so we could bounce ideas off of each other. haha.

Today, I finished The Mayor of Casterbridge and thus exceeding my goal to read a book over break. Haha, I finished two! Hooray! All in all, it was a good read. I was afraid that it might be boring at first, but so many others have recommended it that I just read on. I felt like I was following the main characters as though they were celebrities, as the background characters of the book probably had done.

Tomorrow, I go back to SLO, officially ending my break. I had a pretty good break overall. Rest from school is always welcome. There were quite a few things that I wasn't able to do, a few people that I wasn't able to see, but it's okay. I think I balanced my time between family, friends, and myself quite well. Getting together with people is always a problem over break. Everyone is doing their own thing and our paths don't cross as easily anymore. That's why I'm so grateful to have spent time with friends, even if only for a couple of hours. =)

2 Friday

Look! I'm keeping up with my resolutions, a second update this year! =)

For Christmas, I got a new digital camera. It's a Canon Powershot SD770IS. It is so nice and cute! Last night, I made a little case for it. Too bad it won't really protect my camera, but it's sort of cute, er at least I tried..

front view

back view

I wanted to make it look like my camera, but it just turned out kind of plain. I do like the button in the back, though, and I've fashioned the little "screen" in the back to be a small pocket to hold SD cards. Alas, there's my attempt at making cute things like Teresa. hehe.

Well, my winter break is nearing its end. I go back to school this Sunday. I'm not really ready to reflect yet. I think I'll save it for tomorrow's post. =)

Tonight, my friends and I are getting together for a movie night at Teresa's. Nothing's really quite set, but hopefully ice cream will be involved?? This will be the last time I'll get to see them for a while, especially Christine who'll be taken away by her Navy boy soon enough... hehe <3

1 Some resolutions...

Well, it's 2009. Can you believe it? How quickly time flies!

Of course, with the start of a new year, one should make some resolutions. So here are mine, in no particular order:

• Keep this blog updated
• Lose ten pounds! (haha)
• Get back into reading books
  
• Be more patient with others and myself
• Be more outgoing
• Optimism!
  
• Be less of a pack rat
• Learn how to make crêpes
• Do better in school (compared to last quarter x_x)
• Take more pictures =)
  
• Eat and live healthy

I have a lot more, but they are more specific to myself. Also, I'm not quite sure how to distinguish between goals and resolutions and things that I just need to do...

The reason why I've been losing sleep over break: PCE SLO
Oh man. This was a huge project. I always thought that it was going to be simple making a website for a club as I had previously done with Cal High NHS. But the difference was that I didn't have a team to work with on this one. Nevertheless, I feel pretty accomplished. By no means is it complete yet. There are still a couple of things that I'd like to change/add, but it's functional for now. I learned a lot!

For your viewing pleasure:
This Is Where We Live from 4th Estate on Vimeo.