11 Video post!

Thought it would be easier if I made a video with a bunch of visuals and thought it would be faster than writing out my thoughts.... Sorry, I look SO crappy!

Some pictures though =]

NWC: The Race Show: http://nwclive.com/

We're the last ones to see the show with the original cast! Hopefully they'll continue the show or make it into a movie. It was a great show, about stereotypes and racism, debunking the myths about them. It's kind of hard to go into much detail. Through all the laughs, there was still a message that the only real race is the human race.

Amazon

I'm so excited for them! I really want to work for them. They have so many great opportunities that I could go with, if they decide to pick me, of course. I need to brush up on programming! Anyways, their software development internships are located at their Seattle headquarters. They pay for everything and room us all with each other! I think it'd be an awesome opportunity, to be able to live in Seattle and gain more experience bei

ng out on my own and working in the industry. I know, I feel like I'm going farther and farther away from home when I don't have to, but I need to learn. What's also great is that they have a subsidiary, CreateSpace.com, located in California. They have an office right here in San Luis Obispo, where a lot of Cal Poly students intern or work part time over school. I think that would be really awesome if it worked out that way.

These guys keep me at the top of my game. I hate them! Again, I look really bad haha, I was pretty sick that night... but I hope I still made a good impression. But they're the reason I went to the Career Fair and signed up for this dinner. I really wasn't looking for an internship for the summer. I was hoping to take a break and just stay for summer school. -_-

Culture Party:

Last night. It was really fun! But I'm glad I stayed home afterwards instead of going out. I really needed rest. My friend is so tall...

10 Mind poop

I have so much that I want to let out! It's not that I haven't been wanting to, but there just hasn't been any time or anyone to talk to really. Don't worry! It's not that I don't want to talk to you. I just haven't been able to. We're all busy, it's understandable. But be prepared for some mind poop, some time over the weekend. =) Sorry, it will probably be a long post.

9 Before I lose this feeling

Despite it having been quite a gloomy day today (weather-wise), I had a pretty bright day, so far. Things that made my day (I swear this list will be a short one):

• Went to Career Services today and got help on my resume. The lady that I met with was so nice! She helped me out a lot. She was so proud of me after looking at my resume! "I'm so proud of you right now! And I don't even know you!" haha. =) That made me feel better, after not knowing what to write down on my resume and being so unsure of myself and what I've done. Ah, that was just a great confidence boost.
• Met with my marketing group for PCN. It was a chill meeting, but I suppose it could've gone smoother... I didn't really have a set list of things to talk about, but we're doing something! I'm excited.
• Instead of working on homework and other things afterwards, I ended up tagging along with some friends in the hopes of being able to play around in the music room. People were practicing though so we couldn't. In the end, Ritchie and I just ended up playing around with the piano in one of the music rooms for half an hour. Time well spent! It was so fun. Both of us hadn't played in so long, so we were just playing random bits and making up songs or making up interpretive dances to Mozart's Sonata K. 545. hahaha ^^ I have a video, but I can't figure out how to get it onto my computer right now... =(

8 Physics and clutter

Ah, Thursday morning. Even though we have a short school week this week, I still have just as much, if not more, to think about. I'm going to stay up a little more to study for Physics, but for now, since I can't think straight, here's a list of random thoughts that have been going through my head these past couple of days.

• Wow, I have a lot to do.
• We have a black president! How crazy! It was really difficult to get a copy of the New York Times today, and I failed to do so.
• Job Fair is coming up soon. I need to work on my resume.
• I'm sitting with Amazon next week.
• I wish I understood physics better.
• I want to go shopping for a dress for Winter Formal. Am I even going? I don't know yet.
• I don't feel like I'm working on my school work as much as I'm supposed to.
• It's funny seeing other people stressed out. Everyone is starting to study for upcoming midterms and preparing for jobs and interviews. I used to be like that. I would always just stay home and study. I never went out to parties. Well, we'll see how my grades turn out this quarter.
• I think part of the reason why I'm not stressing out is because I don't really know what I want to do. I'm just going along for the ride.
• I'm now spending more time in the gym than at the library.
• My guy friends are starting to become really lame. They're never up for doing anything anymore. They're so anti. Anti girls, anti going out of their way to hang out with others. I associate it with laziness and being antisocial, but they like it. I'm kind of tired trying to change everyone's minds.
• I need to pay more attention to deadlines.
• I should apply for more scholarships.
• I don't think I can think about studying abroad right now. There's too much going on.
• I'm having a dilemma about being active in PCE and working on school. I know that I should really be more focused on school, and I hope that that still hasn't changed, but I just feel like it has. There's just so much to think about, but I really should prioritize and stop accepting more responsibility. If I continue to do so, I think I will eventually fall apart.
• I have a lot of goals this quarter. It's going alright so far. I'm managing my time, not too many nights spent staying up working yet. 
• Some relationships, I still feel are strained. But it's okay. For now. It's bad, I'm still angry sometimes, and I fuel it. But it's just thoughts. I'm more indifferent, or I say that I am.
• Looking at my calendar, I feel so accomplished, but I'm not really. I think it's just because I fill it up with stuff that I might need to know. 
• I want to watch Slumdog Millionaire, read and watch Coraline, and finish another book. It's kind of hard to get into a book right now, with so many other thoughts going through my mind.
• Valentine's day is coming up. Why am I even thinking of this when it's still three weeks away?
• I haven't reached my goals yet, and I know that I still have a long way to go. But I'm more hopeful now. I can see myself reaching it.
• I miss home, but I'll be back to visit soon enough! =)

7 Weekend in Pictures

Sorry, I haven't had time to blog. I sure have been thinking about it though. Just never had the time to write anything down. Here was my crazy weekend before I locked myself up in my room to do homework.

UTS & Jones @ Cayucos + playing with swings at the beach

View from not even halfway up Bishop's Peak, night hiking x_x

My favorite grade vortexes, oh jeez...

Hopefully more to come later! I know I always say this, but it's true...

6 Gentlemen

Quick update at 4:30 in the morning...

I'm currently in better spirits compared to my previous post. Thanks for checking up on me. =]

I recently caught up with my good friend Tam. I met him last year at the dorms and he still only lives down the hall from me. Even though we're even closer now, we see each other less. So this is the first time since I've talked to him in a while. It was nice to catch up with him. I missed those times when we would just hang out at each other's rooms and talk. I had forgotten how randoms our conversations are, but they would always flow. Not a lot of time wasted in silence. The topics would also vary from serious to light-hearted ones. It's different with him and I've missed that. 

Before we ended our talk (I was cleaning up and doing laundry), he went downstairs to the laundry room with me and came back up to drop me off at my room. I just thought that that was very courteous of him. From there, I continued to think about how some of my guy friends last year used to drop me off at my dorm hall's door when we said good-bye. Haha, it's so different now. Perhaps it's because we now live closer and it's inconvenient for them to come up simply to drop us off at our rooms. Oh well.  I wonder if it would ever be like that again.

Hopefully another update later with pictures! =]

5 Optimism

Back to school. Schedule is pretty tough, but the week is not over yet. Basically, I have three long days in a row but followed by two chill days. Oof. Well, workload is not quite certain yet. It's only the first week. We will see how this plays out...

Coming back to Cal Poly over this past weekend, I was filled with optimism and enthusiasm. I was so excited and kept thinking how this quarter will be so great. New classes, new teachers, new people to meet, a continuation of getting to know those I met last quarter... After two days of classes, I'm still excited but admittedly not as much as I used to be. It's weird how quickly emotions could change. But that's a different topic.

I want to accomplish so many things this quarter. I know that I'm being ambitious in all the activities that I want to participate in and all the work and effort that I want to put into my classes. I'm confident that I can handle it all and I'm being careful about choosing which projects I want to continue with or not. This quarter is already proving to be much different. I've been spending more time by myself. I told myself that that's what I wanted last quarter. It's a good thing. I want to be more independent and it's easier to get things done since I don't have to rely on others. But now, I'm spending a lot more time with my thoughts, which I've already decided is a bad thing. My thoughts so easily make their way to more serious matters or self-doubt and self-hate and I just end up sulking.

My question to you is how do you keep yourself in good spirits and optimistic?